Sorry I’m not interesting. Sorry I didn’t grow up in some unique amazing way(which actually she didn’t you’re just stupid). Sorry im soooo boring and can’t keep up with your intellect. You’re overrated anyways.
Attachment is bad
I have this thing where the second I start to depend on or get attached to someone I leave. I thinks it’s actually a very common problem. The thought of relying on someone the way I once did.. I literally can’t do it. I tried so hard, but my heart has this giant wall. You know, THE WALL that everyone talks about after heartbreak. I think it’s good to have that wall though, because once its up you’re safe. No one can hurt you. No one can control you. No one can love you because if they try you’re gone… I’d rather not have feelings for someone. I’d rather go through life alone and depre then to have my heart broken like that again. I can’t even listen to maxwell without crying. A song came on the radio while I was driving home from work today and the lyrics were “it’s out anniversary” I fuckin balled right there. I want to be the one in control from now on. Sometimes I just want to hurt others like you hurt me. I can’t do that though, I mean sometimes it just happens, but it’s not on purpose. A woman has needs- I just don’t want the emotional part to be involved. I can’t ever believe a man again. You looked me in the eyes and made me believe everything…and it’s really fucking sad to because you still own my heart and you don’t even want it. I guess she’s better then me though- obviously not appearance wise, but that never mattered to you anyway. She can carry a child and give you a family. I can’t even carry my child for more than 2 months. It’s all for the best in the end though. I hope you enjoy you’re little family. No actually I hope it’s shit on the Long run. Probably the worst feeling in the world is making love to the person who momentarily owns your soul and then being told by them afterwards that their girl is pregnant ect ect. I could
Never let another guy own me the way you did. A man will NEVER have my heart until he proves himself 200%. You don’t even think about me anyways. And you fucking ruined maxwell and Sade for me too bitch. They are fucking amazing. I control me now. You’re a mere reminder that men=lying pieces Of shit that will only cause more pain then they do happiness.
